September 5 2004
Currently....
I remember everything
You said you hate my suffering
that's enough quoting .
September 9th 7:08pm
Ok so i suck at updating this. but this time i swear it's the truth, as long as my internet does not break yet again...well i still have to get it working, this isn't my computer. anyways point is i'm lazy. but time to try again. i also will try to make it look..different, time to start over.
my webcam isn't working, so no picture today.
Also right now i am listening to Chloroform Perfume by From Autumn to Ashes. good stuff, i also recomend Haligh Haligh a Lie Haligh by the Bright Eyes, even better.
At the present(awesome vocabulary louise, really.) it is 8:59
i'm wearing some ugly yellow sweatband, i like contrast
my hair just got died black(yesterday)(hence the contrast)
ok so now one of my best friends is switching schools, so i will see her like never, because i hardly ever find tim efor her anyways. this is terrible, but what can i do, oh well.
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you painted blue and glued with jewelry tears
Something about those bright colors
would always make you feel better
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren?t meant for anyone
It?s just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you
And you understood
And you?d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?
-Bright Eyes
So school is starting the day after tomorrow., it will be good to numb my mind and forget about the nothing i have been thinking about all summer. i feel like summer brought out too much good in me, i need to be more sinicle, and evil, hence the black hair. also i bought a hoodie for $8.95, and it is awesome, i impressed myself with my bargaining skills, it was on sale.
i wish i could have a preview of this year, so i can anticipate failure, or death, or have something to look forward to if it contains good, of any kind. i have a terrible feeling that this year may be worse in terms of how i survive it than last year (rough).
one thing i always liked was walking home from school, even if i was wet and cold and felt like shit in a can, something about that walk that is so fullfulling when i finish it. and i think, i think the best when i walk. or write as i seem to be doing now.
That's all i have to say now i think.
It is thursday.
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